Well, I gotta say, I’m disappointed in myself. After all of the ridiculous things this woman has done (see my other posts tagged “evil Storytime lady” if you want background) the thing that put me over the edge was really not that bad. At all. It was definitely a “straw that broke the camel’s back” situation.
And I lost my temper. I didn’t yell or swear, but I kind of let her have it and I wasn’t even very articulate about it. It was definitely an overreaction to what happened today. But of course it wasn’t just about today.
Max and I arrived about 10 minutes early for Storytime and we’re sitting and waiting for it to start. There’s another woman and her daughter there and no one else. ESL is talking to that woman and I’m thumbing through photos on my phone.
So then she turns to me and says, “Can you not use your phone in here? I find it very distracting.”
To be clear, I was not speaking on my phone. I was looking at it and it was silent. And I never have it out during ACTUAL Storytime.
I said, “Storytime hasn’t started yet. I’ll put it away when we get started.”
To which she replied, “Yes, but I just find it very distracting and I’d rather you didn’t use it in here.”
And I said, “that’s ridiculous. We haven’t even started yet.”
And she responded, “If you want to use your phone you can go out in the hall.”
And so I said, “You know what, [ESL], you are so incredibly rude all the time! You’ve screamed at me, you’ve yelled at other people! I know a bunch of people who don’t come to this Storytime any more because you’re always so rude to everyone!”
So she was like, “I’ve never been rude to you!”
And I said, “You don’t remember the time you screamed at me?”
And she was like, “no!”
(At this point the other lady was acting super interested in her own hands)
So I was like, “okay, well there were a lot of other people there when it happened. I can’t believe you even have this job. I’m done.”
And I left. And I went to try to speak to the library director but he’s hiking the Pacific Crest Trail with his brother for the next two weeks. Oy.
I feel like an asshole. Asking me not to use my phone wasn’t the worst request ever and I really shouldn’t have blown up at her in front of someone else. And I’m pissed at myself because I totally forfeited any high ground I might have had.
But I really do think her request was ridiculous and it was just another bizarre control thing for her and I truly think she is doing a lot of harm to the library in the position she’s in- she’s the community outreach person! And in addition to being vile all the time, she also just sucks at running Storytime, which should not be that hard. She’s disorganized and she chooses activities and books that are way too advanced for the age group… she is just really not the right person for the job.
So. Blurgh. I feel like I should apologize to her but I also just can’t imagine that conversation going any way other than horribly. I’m going to talk to the director when he gets back… I may even email him now.
Storytime, man. High drama.